Yeah, you guessed it, the title is, “you gotta be f**king kidding me, this is bull sh*t.”

Basicly, a few nights ago there was this girl… Like, wow… Emo as HELL. and I was forced to talk to her until 3 in the morning… Just read, really. WTF. Oh, and by the way, you’ll find out a lot about the position i’m in :]
I’ll write about that later…

(12:24:04 AM) Her:  hi
(12:24:09 AM) Me:  Hi
(12:24:17 AM) Her:  waz up
(12:24:31 AM) Me:  just got home
(12:24:42 AM) Her:  from where
(12:24:49 AM) Me:  bavysitting
(12:24:58 AM) Me:  babysitting**
(12:25:31 AM) Her:  who u babysit for
(12:26:03 AM) Me:  some girl on the other side of town
(12:26:38 AM) Her:  o
(12:26:48 AM) Me:  yea

(LATER)

(1:47:41 AM) Her:  go to bed mister
(1:47:50 AM) Me:  Not yet.
(1:48:09 AM) Her:  yes go im your mommy
(1:48:13 AM) Me:  uh
(1:48:14 AM) Me:  no
(1:48:28 AM) Her:  mhm
(1:48:41 AM) Me:  i dont believe you
(1:48:55 AM) Her:  belive it
(1:49:01 AM) Me:  never.
(1:49:15 AM) Her:  ill slap u young man
(1:49:40 AM) Me:  lol
(1:49:40 AM) Me:  ok
(1:50:12 AM) Her:  o u want to be slapped
(1:50:24 AM) Me:  sure
(1:51:14 AM) Her:  slaps u on the ass lol
(1:51:19 AM) Me:  o.o
(1:51:25 AM) Her:  domt
(1:51:32 AM) Her:  don’t make me do it aggain
(1:51:32 AM) Me:  more reason you not to be my mom
(1:51:45 AM) Me:  :3
(1:51:50 AM) Her:  ill do it agin
(1:51:57 AM) Me:  no thx
(1:52:08 AM) Her:  mmm good if u went far i might rap u lol jk
(1:52:24 AM) Me:  uhhh
(1:52:31 AM) Me:  nothanks
(1:52:36 AM) Her:  lol k
(1:52:44 AM) Me:  imma go look for food though
(1:52:52 AM) Her:  lol k
(1:52:56 AM) Her:  get me something
(1:53:06 AM) Me:  ill look
(1:53:15 AM) Her:  k
(1:56:23 AM) Me:  WE dont have anything.
(1:56:25 AM) Me:  wtf.
(1:56:56 AM) Her:  o
(1:59:14 AM) Her:  I need a friend now
(1:59:30 AM) Me:  o.o?
(1:59:50 AM) Her:  :'(
(1:59:58 AM) Me:  what/
(2:00:01 AM) Me:  what?
(2:01:10 AM) Her:  y do I have to be the one to loose my family and suffer threw eveyrhting
(2:01:22 AM) Me:  Believe me, you’re not the only one
(2:02:22 AM) Her:  y’s that
(2:03:42 AM) Me:  everyone looses family and suffers through horrible things
(2:04:33 AM) Her:  I loose my great grandma that was like closet thing to me and then my grandpa almost gets killed and now fred is in a coma
(2:05:26 AM) Me:  my grandma dies, the family never sees eachother anymore, my brother goes to jail, i get to raise a kid 6 years early
(2:06:37 AM) Her:  I know with the kid its goign to be rough, but u are kinda lucky cus then u will have something to watch and care for, for me I have no one to care about me or love me
(2:10:05 AM) Me:  i have to get a new job, move out and pay rent, and loose thousands of dollars on something that I dont particularly want right now
(2:10:34 AM) Her:  ill help u nick
(2:10:38 AM) Me:  For the next 18 (at least) years of my like, more than twice as long as I’ve been living
(2:10:57 AM) Her:  ill be their for u nick, ill help u with the kid
(2:11:56 AM) Me:  It’s fine
(2:11:58 AM) Me:  I’ll be fine
(2:12:05 AM) Her:  nick i want to help u
(2:12:46 AM) Me:  believe me, amber, I’ll be fine
(2:13:19 AM) Her:  how do u know that your job won’t cover at all, when the baby comes do u know how much u are goign to be up takign care of it and hw much money
(2:16:13 AM) Me:  i make 6.75/hr ~25 hours a week, that’s usually a 220 paycheck. with that money I have to buy a car, pay rent, pay to have the kid, which is 8 grand
(2:16:23 AM) Me:  I only have 800 to my name
(2:16:44 AM) Her:  u get 9.25 a hour and i get about 260 to 300, i can help u nick
(2:17:49 AM) Me:  It’ll be fine, trust me
(2:18:02 AM) Her:  nick ill be here for u k if u need any help tell me
(2:18:10 AM) Me:  ok
(2:18:12 AM) Me:  I will
(2:18:53 AM) Her:  k, i care for u alot and I don’t want u to go through tis alone
(2:19:13 AM) Me:  I know
(2:19:17 AM) Me:  I’ll be fine
(2:21:34 AM) Her:  k nick
(2:21:40 AM) Me:  hm?
(2:22:12 AM) Her:  I miss u so much
(2:22:48 AM) Me:  I know
(2:23:19 AM) Her:  but u don’t
(2:23:49 AM) Me:  i need to do what’s right for this baby
(2:24:25 AM) Her:  I know, but are u goign to let me go
(2:25:17 AM) Me:  I have to.
(2:25:33 AM) Her:  even if u love me
(2:25:39 AM) Me:  We can be friends, that’s it, Amber.
(2:26:02 AM) Her:  i just want to know do u love me
(2:26:53 AM) Me:  No.
(2:27:39 AM) Her:  i guess no one loves me
(2:29:26 AM) Her:  don’t stop me from what im goign to do nick
(2:30:07 AM) Me:  And what’s that?
(2:31:17 AM) Her:  what do u think
(2:31:35 AM) Me:  Cut.
(2:32:20 AM) Her:  don’t u stop me
(2:32:57 AM) Me:  Ok… If you’re truly set on cutting yourself over me….
(2:33:14 AM) Her:  u dont’ get it nick
(2:35:28 AM) Me:  No I dont.
(2:35:32 AM) Me:  I know that.
(2:36:01 AM) Her:  no one cares, im alone, no ones loves me
(2:37:49 AM) Me:  I’m sorry about that, but I cant start confusing myself anymore
(2:38:59 AM) Her:  and I can’t start thinking that their is a life for me
(2:40:48 AM) Her:  im better off not here
(2:41:09 AM) Me:  Doubt it
(2:41:52 AM) Her:  I don’t want my life anymore i hate it all i do is suffer i can’t take it hutrs me to much
(2:44:28 AM) Her:  nick
(2:44:34 AM) Me:  What?
(2:45:56 AM) Her:  i cn’t feel anthing right now i feel like im going out
(2:49:42 AM) Her:  bye
(2:50:29 AM) Me:  bye?
(2:50:48 AM) Her:  im sorry I hurt myself right now and i dont’ feel alright
(2:51:33 AM) Me:  ok…
(2:51:55 AM) Her:  i cut myself k i fell like im goign to fate, cus with all the blood
(2:52:13 AM) Me:  i suggest sleep then
(2:52:32 AM) Her:  dont’ u get it nick i cut really deep
(2:53:01 AM) Me:  i get it.
(2:53:08 AM) Me:  but I cant stop you.
(2:53:36 AM) Her:  u can stop me
(2:55:08 AM) Me:  I can call 911, or your house and tell someone what you are doing, i cant help any other wa.
(2:55:10 AM) Me:  way*/
(2:55:31 AM) Her:  no dont’ tell my mom or grandma, ill be sent
(2:56:11 AM) Me:  Then I dont know how I can help.
(2:56:33 AM) Her:  just talk to me through it just u help me stop
(2:57:33 AM) Her:  nothing seems to work for me, just plez nick help me through this, I don’t want to be like this
(2:58:11 AM) Me:  Amber, I cant help.
(2:58:18 AM) Her:  y
(2:58:37 AM) Me:  I cant talk, that’s it.
(2:58:54 AM) Her:  fine bye
(2:59:14 AM) Me:  erm, can** sorry.
(2:59:24 AM) Me:  >.<
(3:00:10 AM) Her:  its k..just help me talk me through it
(3:00:26 AM) Her:  i g2g im tired ill talk to u tommorrow bye xx
(3:00:36 AM) Me:  OK
(3:00:45 AM) Me:  night
(3:00:58 AM) Her:  go to bed soon
(3:01:03 AM) Me:  I will.

Now then…. about this. Notice RIGHT AT 3, She decides, “oh, im tired, good night” I mean, WTF, that’s soooooo stupid and pissed me off like hell! >:[
Still, lol. I’m taken, and she’s acting like this, wtf lulz.