Normally, on a holiday like this, I would be able to say what I’m thankful for, and not just the obvious family and friends. I mean, being thankful for the smaller things.

This year, it feels a bit different. Of course, I’m still thankful for my family and friends. They are great. The little things though… They’re tough this year. I see posts on social media, and I try to say what I’m thankful for.

There’s not much this year, overall… I’ve lost some people close to me this year. I can feel like health taking a massive decline. I’m not as happy with my job as I wish I were. I’m barely skimming by this year. I guess I should be thankful for that.

But just skimming by is not how I want to live, it takes a heavy and brutal toll on my heart, on my mind, and on my body. I can’t keep this up, and I’m pissed that I can’t figure out how to change it.